我又想家了^^

这几天身体不好,拉肚子加例假,20几度的天气却浑身发抖,本来就想家,一病更是雪上加霜.家里再小都是温暖舒适,这里物质条件再好都是身在异乡为异客.下午昏昏沉沉睡过去,醒来分不清白天黑夜,太多太多的日子只能用睡眠来麻木自己,只有在梦里才能忘却痛苦,回到家里.好想奋斗的我却找不到用武之地,大好的青春浪费在这里.寂寞,孤单,无助,什么都尝试了.忽然想到明天还要去macys上班,唉,感慨吧,廉价的劳动力何时能停止?!!

Dark in front

Everyday, wake up in anxierty, without help with hope. Everyday, doing the things I don't want to do, working for the postion I don't like. If life could go back, I would probably not come out. For everything I handled by myself outside, it's just too much. I think it's going to reach my limit soon, don't know when, in 2 weeks, in one month. Don't want to live like this anymore, life has been too hard on me. Just by muself.... Don't know what I'm going to get in future, wherever destiny drives me to, anyway, please take me away from this situation ASAP. Life only with myself, I can't tell where is heaven where is hell!!!

一花一世界

一岁一枯荣^^人各有命.尽力,但不要太勉强.如果这就是尽头,我也不会后悔,毕竟曾经努力过.

Back to Miami

OGM, it's really miserable since i came back from China, the moment I landed in Miami (Feb 7th 1:20am local time), I hate it. The humidity , the jet lag, the failure of 2 phone interviews. I feel like someone else when I'm doing everything. Guess I didn't really get use to the life here, or I really love living hangzhou, the best city for life. Pretty city, nice restaurants, my family and friends, all these I missed, all these I can't give up. i would give myself 2 months to look for better opportunities in the States, otherwise I would just go back to where I love. Though I don't know if I can hang on till second month. I don't have appetite these 3 days, feel like vomitting when I see food, guess it's because of the pressure. Although my parents told me, no worries about going back, still, I know they would like i stay here with a decent job and family. I don't know what to do except for working hard to find a job. That's my only way to stay here longer, even one year more, I would be happy. But if not, I would be happier to go back to my parents, it has been so long for me to handle too much by myself, I'm really really tired, exhausted.