Will China rise peacefully? Nooooooooo..

The School of International and Public Affairs presents “Will China Rise Peacefully?” with University of Chicago professor John Mearsheimer. The lecture is part of the prestigious Ruth K. and Shepard Broad Distinguished Lecture Series.
This afternoon I went to the lecture, it was great, I enjoyed it. Though sometimes, I can feel the arrogence and ignorence of Ameircan...
About his lectuer:
Part 1,5 assumptions: a, there is only one super States. b, some countries have power to influence the stability of the world. c, No country has the idea about intention of other country (temperory intention is not =future intention). d, for every country the highest goal is survive. e,Every country tries to be the rational thinker.
Part 2, a, fear of other powerful country's rise. b, when 2 countries have conflict, no 911 could help, so help yourself. c, how to help oneself, by threat others
Part 3, breif America history. This is related with why America is and still want to be super power country. From 1783-1853 is the independent period for the country, they work hard to be independent, kick French, Spanish, English out of the States. From 1853-1900, expore Europe. In 1900-2000, poweful countries: imperial German, Nazi German, Japan, Sovereign Union. America tried its best to impede the rise of these countries. 顺我者昌，逆我者亡！！！
I feel China can hardly escape this fate, horrible. China has many problems,like bord with Japan,Korea, India, Vietnam, Russia. the territory problem: Taiwan, Tibet. economic problem: U.S's pressure, population problem: after 2050 China would turn to a OLD society... Of course, many of them are artificial, because it's developing too fast, there are many countries are nervous, like America and Japan. So they would make many problems to hinder China's development. Reasonable !!!
I'm proud for being a Chinese, but I'm worried about the future of the country. The only thing I could do maybe is learn as much as possible in States and contribute to China. But I don't have any idea about the specific things I should do to make things different. Only with my passion, but where is the path?!

relax, life is a journey, enjoy...

Life is a short & long journey, try to enjoy every place you have been, every nice person you met, and everything you did. I was reading "just enough", it's a good book. Before I picked it, I thought it might have negative effect on me, because as a typical Asian, I'm not that greedy on money as most Americans. Pursuiting happiness is the most important in one's life, instead of money. But I would believe, many things are set by destiney, the only thing we could do is try our best, and leave the rest of it for fate. I do admit, I messed up the relationship with him. To be honest, I really don't know how to work it out.
There is only one month left, time flys, I could vividly recall everything happened in the first month when I arrived in the U.S. No matter wheather I would stay or leave after I finish my study, there is no regret. Appreciate every person who helped me in last few months, the time in the U.S. is the most difficult in my life till now. But I learnt many things, learn to cook, learn to live alone, learn to be dependent, learn to appreciate. If it's not mine, don't push, there will be something sweet for me, I believe I deserve it.

良师益友……

这次学乖了，任何能给我巨大快乐的事，都有可能紧接着让我痛彻心肺的事。
天哪，你不是听到我的心愿了，还是你看到了，我的痛，觉得这样的惩罚对我来说够了！谢谢你啊，把这个这个良师益友，这个能让我振作，发挥最大能量的人还给我了！今天听到隔壁小两口还在讨论学术问题，虽然是计算机白痴，不过道理我能懂，枕边人容易找，良师益友难求。
真的需要指导，需要鼓励了，迷路的我想家，想哭。通常我是不会这样的。
唯一的心愿，唯一的期望，放弃所有的一切追求，结果让我输的那么彻底。天哪，你也不忍心吧！很难抉择，知道自己傻自己笨，对着他自己会再一次犯同样的错误。可是还是情不自禁想重来，存电话，加好友，早知今日何必当初！？不过我是真的很想他啦！已经觉得自己很不容易了，控制那么久，不知道还能坚持几天，不过我会努力的，直到有一天完全崩溃！

心很累，很想家

最近老是觉得运气不好，所有的坏事都一起来。从和他关系处理失败开始，家教，工作，驾照，一系列事情都让我头疼。老天啊，请你平均分配一下吧，让我从天堂坠入地狱，我的承受能力真的有限啊……本意不是这样,可是看看被我搞成什么样了,不想让他有任何负担,压力,只想让他知道他在我心中的地位,任何困难只要有他的鼓励,指导,我一定能克服的.可是那番话言者无意,听者有心.背道而驰,适得其反,所有的副作用都起效了...我都在想,自己是不是做错了,如果可以重来,我还是想表达同样的意思,只是应该用什么方法把事情解决的更好.难道这就是所谓的"缘尽于此"?!我还能改变什么吗?不惜一切代价!
终于觉得一个人在外面很久了，想家了，想抱抱妈妈,看看爷爷了。以前觉得自己是女孩中坚强的,承受能力是超强的,再苦再累回家就没事了.不过毕竟我还是妈妈的宝宝，只有在杭州才能为所欲为的任性，在家里，在工作中,那真是我的paradise。一个人出来才知道“隐忍”，很多事情太无奈，没有比较不知道“幸福”是什么味道。可是现在事以至此，我还能怎么样？想过一千个一万个“如果”，可是没有退路。一个人走的真的好辛苦啊……

do you hear me?!

Do you hear me? My lord! I would do anything to get him back. It's in equibilibrium. The more happiness I retrieve from other things, the fewer I could get from you. I thought you heard me, so you sent me the letter from a company in Kansas city. I thought you heard from you, so you sent me an message under his name. I thought you heard from me, so you know how much I miss him, how much I would want to repair this relationship (no matter what price I have to pay for). I thought you heard from me: it's raining heavily outside. I want to get home. RIGHT NOW!!!

Jessica‘s wedding

偶然发现小骆同学的结婚照，很美啊，终于知道，摄影师的魔力了，弄得我也很想去拍，不过找人，减肥先哈哈……真心的祝福他们，一路走来不容易啊，迫于家庭社会的压力，4年的风风雨雨，异地“作战”，终于修成正果，这算不算感动上天啊？某种程度上觉得我和小骆还是有点像，虽然都是南方的孩子，不过都有点毅力，有点倔强。唯一不同的是，没她那么好运气，她能找到一个愿意陪她风雨一路走来的好男人，就算逆境中也有人一起分担，再苦再累也无所谓。我们，都只愿为自己欣赏的人作出任何让步，不勉强，不牵强。可是，人各有命，不是每个人都有相同的结局。不过希望以前的姐妹都能幸福快乐……如果能在杭州参加他们的婚礼该有多好啊……

知道我想要的又怎样？

他总是说我不知道自己想要什么，总是为别人而活。可是我不觉得这样很累，看到自己喜欢的人开心我就开心了。有时候知道自己想要的却得不到反而更痛苦。我喜欢静静的生活，偶尔有点波澜。美国中西部的生活挺适合我的，生活节奏不那么快，不过能在大城市找到一点现代的感觉。不用考虑去kansas工作生活，反而有点迷失方向，以前一直为了能和他在一起作为自己努力的目标，现在美国对我来说真的毫无吸引力。特别是今天知道刘10月1号结婚，而如果我在美国工作的话，很有可能不能参加她的婚礼，高中最好的姐妹，真的不想错过一生一次的纪念。人生总是有很多无奈，很多无能为力……