twisted..

事情真的变得好复杂，没工作很惨，有2个相当好的工作也很痛苦……
昨天从学校知道工作签证通过那一刻，我真的希望这个消息是假的（听起来不可思议），可是当我看到邮件，真的泣不成声，不是因为高兴，而是因为想着就快离开公司了，很舍不得。一边很伤心，一边很高兴得给校长写感谢信，一边很痛苦的给老板写辞呈。想到以后再也不能和他一起开心的工作，好难过……不过理智的一面，告诉我，一定要去学校……于是开始绞尽脑汁例举辞职的理由，零零落落写了3个，实在想不出来了，这三个都是我胡编乱造夸大其词的：1，大家都说西班牙语，导致我理解障碍，无法正常完成工作。2，人人越级找老总，导致我的作用无法发挥。3，作为国际学生，工作签证是一比不小的开支。
很快老板来短信，要求聊聊。反驳了我说的那些不是理由的理由，再三要求我留下……
一夜辗转反侧。
一早上班，老板就我说的3点钟最重要的1点进行改进，我可以很明显体会：凡进入办公室者，必说英语。中午，他带我去吃饭，讨论了其他问题，第二点，据他说，公司正在改革阶段，各部门马上就会有效执行命令。第三点，他说根本不是问题，如果钱能解决，不惜代价留住我。他甚至说，只要我喜欢这个工作，他可以先帮我申请签证，如果后期改革不见成效，我还是想走，绝对尊重我，不过希望我等到搬到新办公室后。
下午他还特地带我去看了新office，他的安排是我会有自己的独立办公室（其他销售和仓管都是整体进行分割的大厅）。虽然办公室离他的也很近，可是没他在旁边我总觉得不踏实。他是我对这个公司唯一留恋的因素。
快窒息了，我想我是很矛盾……

all set

Today I got my first car, it's not that new, but happy with it. Basically, for me, as long as it's running, that's fine :) Till now, life starts getting better, with nice appt, my own car, stable payment. The last thing left, which is the job, still pending for the better desicion. But many people said, I already made the desicion, the only thing I'm thinking is a good excuse for my boss. Yes, I guess that ture. Sorry for that, but I have to go!

loving it

Time flies, it has been 4 weeks since I worked in M. Really love working there and working for him.
---I can learn a lot from him everyday. He would teach me without holding back.
--- He trusts me, let me do everything on purchasing, and invest on me for training.
---He has great personality, at least I love that. Positive, confident, lots of sales and revenue. For me, the company should be his, because he does 98% of the main things.
---He does everything, janitor, mechanic, sales,mantenance, purchaser....for me he can fix everything, that's what man means to me.
---When he does everything above, I just feel everything on him is perfect. He looks handsome, he smells good....
But today , when I got confirmation from Haar, I wasn't that happy as I should be.
And when I know after we are moving, I can't be as close to him as now I am, I'm just not that happy :( I really need his help in business and in confidence. I work much better when he is in the office!
Trust me, if one day, I'm leaving you, because I really don't have other choice, and my heart is broken...