You are the only reason

You are the only reason I'm working here, if there is anything happened to you, I'm not sure where I'm driving to. These two days, you went out for business, really miss you, so much :( I need you both in work and personal.
It doesn't matter how much money I make, the only thing I miss the happiness. You are the only person in this strange country could make me smile, from bottom of the heart. I know it's not right, but I wish you don't have some parts of your life now, I wish everything in between us are true, wish you love me as much as I love you.

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I don't know what desicion others would make, for me, I picked A. Because I know, I'm going to love the job and love him forever, maybe forever is too long, let's make it "as long as I can remember". Hope it's true, other way around.
Since I first picked B, and living like torturing life for 1-2 weeks, I know where my heart wants to go. It's not an easy desicion, because I'm putting my future as stake. I bet we could win. Whenever and Forever. The moment, I desided to be here, I want 2 things, self-realization and U.
I'm totally reseased when I convinced myself that I should stay in the company, though, it's little tiny company, at least it has potential to grow. For most important, I got you back :)

a story with two men

A: sweet, nice, handsome, gentle, low start, risky. Exact dream boy, besides the money part, acctually, it's not that bad, but not high level. You are living normal, but happy with him. Seeing him everything is nothing but happiness. Talking to him is nothing but sweetness.

B:Promising future life, stable, no super rich, no extreme poor. No dangerous, good husband type. Can give you whatever you want, maybe except the feeling part, but life is not just love, it's also something practical.

Both are good to you, the only difference is, A is touching your heart, towards B is only gratitute. Which one do you pick?! I might choose B, but loving A to death...

Crazy job picker is still struggling .....