Yesterday, I dreamt of my grandma, she was alive and told me she would die in half year, and something else, like I should work hard, be nice to grandpa and my parents. It' s kind of wierd, maybe it's the first time in America I had this kind of dream, when I woke up this morning, I miss my grandpa, a little worried about him. I really want to take good care of him, but.... limited ability... even can't be with my mum. Last time, when I talked to mum, she said she just want to live me, no matter where it is and what the condition is. Yes, I do miss her too, if I could only take one person from China, I would definitely take her, not only because she can take care of my children, but I love her...
And pong, the person I care most in States, the reason for me stay, the unpredictable person, is coming tonight, in one hour and half. It's so close and so far away. We are going to spend next 3 days together, almost every singal minute, but I feel like I will not be that lucky. Because I'm using the "credit " for future. We might not meet in the rest of life. Suppose, destiny is set, we could only have one week together, then we already used 3 days, there are 4 more left... Of course, I hope it's just my silly assumption, it's all subjected to our destiny. Hope the expectancy is the rest of our life... Nervous...
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